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eye_love_itt @ 2005-10-08T04:49:00

2005-10-08T11:47:54Z

i been on myspace. thats the new thing right...
so gimme ur names.
some of u people i never knew we had nothing in common lol. but for evertuone that i dont know gimme ur names ill add u there

ha ha ha

2004-09-07T09:06:18Z

i need more journal friends. more photo taker peoples.
i want the loud moufy people! the hyphy asss bitches and fooz that are on this site..IF ANY!!!?!??!. to hit me up. RIGHT NOW!

friend only. dun dun dunnnnnn

2004-04-27T00:00:16Z

FRIENDS ONLY.

uh huh.

2004-04-26T01:39:29Z

mannn so imma have to do it... i am going to go friends only :D

i spoke with keith today:D and i was all reading him the comments.lol. hes all hella laughing.lol. hahahhahahahh so we got a few laughs out of it. :P i love him so muchhh he aint going to call untill 4 days more now. :) thats okay. we spoke for like 30 it was cool :D and i was all trying to explain to him the fuckign concept hes like..., fuck that shit. just erase it. im like no no no hes like aight then do whut u is going to do. uh huh ;) friends only. gosh he makes everything so simple. but its really not. i miss him.. and welll imma go and and write a long ass entry about it and keep iT quiet.lol.

and then he gave me advice on the r&r situation.... u guys know about it riiight i been writing bout it. anyways yeah next entry :)

underneath it allll theres a endless story.<333

2004-04-25T13:05:30Z

whats upppp people. :D

havent really felt like writing anything....but i been good. just busy and running around like a mad woman. uh.
my cousins birthdya went coo :D there was drama but i was ready for it i was expecting it ya know. my bADDD i did not take any pics. at all.lol no one did not one. :( i did... take hella cam footagte but u guys arent able to see that so why even bring it on.. okay... moving along.

uhm got into another fight with my mom. over something stupid. something really lame and its bothering me.. but i am not going to let it eat me away ya know.:) i just got to let it pass and not let her words change how i fee and my stand points or whatnot.

carlos been chilling a lot. he came.. the other day came to the birthdya party ended up spending the night and oOoH HE LET ME KEEP HIS BONG AT MY HOUSE. its beaaaautiful im telling u its fucking greattt :D 2 feet? awww its pertyyy :P and it hits hellla coo two hits from that thing u are gone the chamber is ahhh so amazing :-) so yeah :D hahahaha. and he came tonight too with his friend. :-) so its been nice visiting with him :D i missed him he is such a cool person so laid back and kick back itsa just really cool to be able to have the uh whats the word for it??!?!?1 uhh i dont know its 6 am to be able to know him as a person. totally cool. :D and i gave him son=me advice about a girl... but i think i may look like a hater ahh i dont care::shrugs:: fuck herrrr :P

i was going thru all keiths stuff he had here and shit. his clothes and in his little draw he kept all his shit in.. well like 3 drawers and found something that shouldnt have been in my room. much less the house... and i am just like ahhh what do i do with itttt :| i am pissed but i cant be mad cushr aint here and its in the passed and well yeah not mad just irrarted i had something like this in my house and didnt know ya know. errr NEMO. imma kick his ass :P

im really sorry i apologize for the immature shit thats been going on in my journal.. its really crazy to think someone would spend that much time and make up retarded shit to say ya know when really they aint knowing even the half.::shrugs:: oh well..

aight thats it. time to go to sleep. good morning.but goodnight for me.

<3 boriiiiiinggggg

2004-04-22T20:17:05Z

::looks around:: dude where the fuck am i going to fit 20 something people its a small apartment. ::looks areound again:: ahh some people will have to freez on the balcony..lol. dannnnnnnnnnnnnng im so serious. aight... so uhmmm i got to clean cus we didnt get to cus carlos came and shir last night and well that was a chillin inside it self ;) annnnd. so then that means nothing got done so i have to do it today and shit. man im so bored.lol. i dont wunt to clean..

theres this weird stalker person who keeps telling me to add them cus i cut them annd im nOoOoT GOING TO. so hahahahhahahaha irrarating as hell tho. wish he would stop or she maybe she a bitch i dunno.

uhm. miss keith. wish he was hurrr and with meeeee and thiiiiis suckkks fo sheeeez.

i need to go and buy a charger for my batterys i have a feeling this lil party were going to throw her is going to be a lot funnn! i doint know. i could be totally wrong. but im taking boo koo pics!! im escites. i dont know imm not going to say im going throw em up cus i will prolly not do it cus the high amount till like sunday or so. so come back for that.

nessa going to come thru. fo sho this time. i think. no promises. so imma get a grip of juss us to throw on here for u guys to seee :D dont trip. ya should know i always got the cam readyyy. aight next post pics.

EDIT!!!!!

66 COMMENTS...OF DRAMA. FUCK THE DUMB SHIIIIT. FORREALS. WANNA PEEK AT MY WEIRDOS.

eye_love_itt @ 2004-04-21T20:15:00

2004-04-22T03:15:41Z

whut the fuck. pohone rang... and amber picks it up. and is like.. hello. dude is like heyyy :D shes all heyyy im like who the fuckl??? and it was carlos!!! i havent chilled with him in like forever like a year we used to practiucally kick it day in day out. miss his ass so he coming over in like an hour and we going to smoke. :D yayyyy \ he is so not what i usually chill with <3333 hes like skater punk i dont know.. he is tight. good times imma take pics. next entry<333 whihc of course is going to be friends only.lol. hahahah anything with pics is now on friends only :D okay... keith...MIAMI...THE JET...KAM<<lol.NOW FUCKING HIM. UHM DONT Let your assumptions get the best of you. <333333

uhhh huuuuuuuuuh

2004-04-22T01:00:19Z

-=my man called=- KEITH VIERRA im calling you out baby boy. i love you so much. how do u do those things you do.

didnt talk long hardley anything. it was silent most of the time. i didnt know whut to say. i love him. i love him so much.. pamela laughing at me. yeah whateveaaaa biatch. pfft :P suckkka free nigga suckaaa freee hahahaha

anyways. got a bit of a headache going on. been on and off online all day long. i left the i net on all day long... and left my away message and just took messages didnt really feel like tlaking to no one ya diggg? just alone day me and my dubizzle. me and my dubberz just laying there watching numerous episodes of the real world. oh y god that show is aweasome they should just officially cast that group fuill time cus man that show be hella good.

Damn that bay area song. what is it is on right now. and fucking it minds me of keiths family and i went to go to the phone one time to call em and say supp but i member they all in jail. except his sis claudia. damn... sad. to be a mom and have all three your sons on lock plus ya man.. damn..claudia just got out her self bout two monthes ago. dannng

anyways. rosies party is on friday finally imma hvae a bunch of younging tearing up my shit.. ya right get they grill bust.lol. its nothhiiin :P anyways so this should be fun we got a lot of cleaning to do..... in order for it to be coo for that many epopel to come i give a fuck if they kids or whatnot shit.

anyways. aiiight. then. im gone. miss u people. a lot of my entries lately been on lock i know. so yeah if ya like why aint she writing i am they just friends only. like the good ones at least ;)

miiiiamiiiii<3 hashahahahhaa

2004-04-18T18:12:02Z

so uh yeah my friend.... talked to him forever last night. gosh we shared hella laughs. so i dont know he gets off work at 2:00 he wunted to come thru and chill...plus i told him my hair was all black. hes like whut i wunt to see it.. mm hmmm i might just go head and chill??? BUT LIKE OH MY GOD I LIKE HAVE NOTHING TO WEAR ::FLIPS HURRR:: pshhhh. :P

shit and then im running off 4 hours sleep AGAIIIIN. you would think i would learn but nahhh i didnt. didnt stop talking to him untill like 5:30!!! wow huh? crazy and now im up and tired as hell.. my hair color is growing on me. i like it i think. :-) whut if he dont.... ehhh....

checked the mail. nothing from keith.....
checked my messages.nothing from keith......
::shrugs:: i dont know. i miss em.

my buddE

2004-04-17T04:55:48Z

julie. i luv ya alot. im here if ya need me :-D

take care... :)

bored

2004-04-15T21:27:09Z

well melissa left today this morning to illinois untill august.. shes over 5 outta 7 days a week.. and im going to miss her.. sucks... and her son... im going to miss bad. too. bleh. sucks. but tis good shes going iout there and shit. so much ups to her ;)

keith hasnt called. santa rita let him go so now hes in san quentin and sitting there waiting to be transferred to calinga... so that means no call official 30 dayz. ewl. god i miss him. its so hard on me. you people dont even knoOoOow. i rag a lot about it but really i just dont do it enuff its liie.. it eats me alive. i miss him so bad.

my bros just left to my aunts for a couple days so they can visit. so now my mom is going to be alone and shit.. so i might just come and spend the night with my moms i am not sure?

no updates.. really. sorry.
thsi weekend imma try and party hardy ..ill take pics :)
but whats new??

imma go thru my list of friend later today and cut some people off.. i always comment and i just dont hear from em.. so im thinking thats the hint.. like hmm hello maybe ya aint got nothing in common.. or maybe...my life is boring compared to theirs i dont know whut it is.i dont know..

and also thinking... of taking off that anon posting thing.. cus of idiots... and also thinking of going friends... so if ya read my journal and u aint on my list u better get up on it. soon. cus once i do the cut... and once i go friend only. im not adding on... come real with it people. geez.

random thoughts.

2004-04-14T01:21:13Z

my little cousin rosie... saw some dudes in red and black.. dressed all thuggish she ran outside and starting hella scareaming aND talking to them... they came up... to the house i invited them in.. ended up offering to smoke with me.. they are 17 18 yrs old. and im high. thank you....youngings. :) i think i found a new weed hook.lol. danggg... and i was just saying how i needed one.lol. funny how life works it self out.

no pics.lol. sorry.

uhm.. thinking.. what else i do? oh i finally created a thingy for that one site...ya know!!!! ;) if u dont know ... ur never going to know.

eye_love_itt @ 2004-04-13T13:04:00

2004-04-13T20:13:29Z

okay so now im writing here i dont know aint got nothing important or intresting to talk about.

heres some pics form yeaturday....

me and amber....

smoke 2 and half of these. uh huh.. ehh whats else is new... melissa rolled that weed up hella good. much props to her...

anyways so now me and rosie are just hanging out and shit being bored we claled everyone and people are doing shit today.. its a tuesday supp with thattt...

heres some pics of dubb and her, thought they was kinda cute :P enjoy.

i will be back later

happy easter pics.

2004-04-12T06:29:53Z

dubs first easter.lol. hahahahhaha easter basket all he wunted was to chew the fake grass... and his favorite thing was this squishy ball.. itys a challanege cus its squashy so he cant bite it fullly. so he been paygin with that for the passed hour.lol

good night people.

eye_love_itt @ 2004-04-11T11:38:00

2004-04-11T18:42:24Z

Happy Easter people.

well... nothing big imma eat a lot and prolly throw up by the end of the night. imma let dubb eat real food today since its a special day and hes going to be roaming round and shit the smells of the food will kill him so i will let him enjoy.lol. my mom bought him hella dog treats he dont know whut to do.lol. they are going to church at 12:30 this time im nto going. i dont feel like going this year. just not in me. hope everything goes well.. happy easter people.

bye bye

boring ass saturday.

2004-04-11T08:57:54Z

man i didnt do jack shit it was saturday and i dint do a damn thing. and now. its time for bed. cus i dont know im a loser who enjoys sleep,where da looosers attt???!?! a joke people. chill. whut u people do for fun. like without doing anything illegal is there anything fun to really do? i mean whut is there???

im unhAPPY with the way i live my life. its like, im always bored with it need to fill it up. its empty. and i dont like that and im starting to let it get to me. like i need to do something hella fast out it. blah.

havent posted anything of the babeeeeeee ((baby)) in a long time. so imma go and take some and post em up. hella late i know.maybe i should go to bed, and not. nah i will. and im actually typing whatever is going on in my head and thats a bad thing ::whsipers:: fuck.

okay here they are. dubbiZzle fo shizZzle my nizZzle.

okay now im going to go to bed. i think?

im going to make that update a friends only.

2004-04-10T19:19:04Z

thursday and friday.... i was gone. not gone like anywhere fun but thrusday did some crys and tweeked and it was a big fucking deal cus my best friend tried it for the first time and melissa.... and they dont everrr fuck round so we chilled. plus jerry came thru. . fekt so damn good havent done that in the longest and friday went to six flags<3 fun time. more later with pics. of both events.

THIS SUCKS.

2004-04-07T20:33:19Z

::WHISTLES:: la la la l al al al ala. when are the delivery people going to get here between 11 and one they said lalalalalalallaa oh what???? its 1:32... lalalalalalalalaalalalalalala. fuck this man. this bites. ::ends whistling::

edit::
so then the lady says.... sorry no couches wait till the 19th and sent us loners. and a hundred bucks. ayiiii.... floss new couches we aint gotta pay for. and a hundred to buy some weed and we can sit on them AND JUST SMOKE OUT? oh fo sho?!?!?!?!

heres the loners...lol

keith didnt call. i hope they didnt ship his out yet he hasnt called in a couple days. them damn collect calls are adding up now. shit is whack. fuck the gov. fuck county.fuck keith for making me go thru life alone. but i cant .lie. i love him. more then life itself. errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

oh yes.. and uhmm

2004-04-07T08:43:55Z

uhm i know the below entry is messed up but im sure u can follow it im not going to go and eidt anddo all that BS. fuck it.

a night that started bad but ended coo as fuck. ::WARNING:: hella pics. so bewearrre

2004-04-07T08:27:15Z

hey people. im high right now so excuse me if i ramble on... okay so we did hella shit today right.. me and amber moved the fucked couches out to her granbdmas cus like yea. tomorroow were getitng new ones and they are going to look so damn niice.. you guys are going to love it. so my heaad hurt bad right usualyl i smoke and it releives it somehow but i went all day without!! imagine.. and then no ciggs ewither i was dying so amber me melissa wanna smoke. we aint got kerra she at woprk... and uh. flyd is sucky.. and uhm d nowhere to be found. so we go thru MY LITTLE coucins connection. i got so blowed. all we got was a 10. ::ayi hard times:: and uh... the ten was like enough to roll a joint maybe two. and thenn.. we smoke were like man fuck it. we aint getting high. we couldnt get up.. we ere hella high. im high as hell rtight now. so we chilled.got caught up with high school drama cus thats the best.lol. oh my god...gerald blew up at meilssa not coo.. i mean bad this time. i was like damn man.. what the fuck kids all crying it was just all bad. so people are screaming were high.. and no one is reacting right.. anyways. not too much detail.. but we spoke and tlaked everythign out and ended up. getting retared and taking pics kinda making everything okay. cus we like that we fall and bounce up. ya know. so then this is what we came up with. all in all... bad turned good. dejaderrr... and rosie. ::singing:; and they sayy hes justa friend:: well i got the right stuff baby uh huh ;) and then..we eneded taking some.lol then amber and melissa get in on the action.lol and yes... thats an ass in the backround.lol. so then we all wanted to try and do it. self pic too my arms are lOoNG. AND THEN LIKE.. manuel grabbed the our breakfest for tomorrow :chorizo:: and put it in his pants and attacked amber she loved it see. and some dubb... wow. now that i got my batterys for the cam im back in business. ;) ahahha hope ya enjoyed these.lol. i know i denoyd3ed taking em.lol

same shit diff day

2004-04-07T00:06:28Z

awwww.... dubb got his shotys today!!! :( he had a follow up and crap. they gave him 4 or was it 5 shots!! he did better then last time. the poor baby :) hes resting now on his mini couch.. ya know those kindss for kids ya buy at walmart or something and they have mini recliners too yeah well he has a couch. anyways yeah hes resting there... so now... hes all sore and shit.

went to my moms to stop and see how she was doing. and my mutherrr fuckerr of a father was there. i freaked out. i started crying like bigg time screammmming..... and fucking.going off on him.....i almost slapped his asss cus he kept tryint go tslk to me... i started screaming at my mom saying how could she let him in. doesnt she wanna get better i prolly mADE it worse.

life fucking sucks. family business. fuck it.

just some test quiz thing.

2004-04-05T18:43:45Z

1) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says: "but the bread just sat on the table." -amelia badellia 2) Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first? cd rack. 3) What is the last thing you watched on TV? vh1 soul channel. I CAN READ YOUR MIIIInd babe. i knoOoOW WHUTCHUUUU THINKIIING. 4) WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is. 1:00 5) Now look at the clock, what is the actual time? 1:20 6) With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? the people that live begind us screaming. 7) When did you last step outside? what were you doing? went with my mommy... to put gas... to pay the lights and to mcdonals. im loving it.:P 8) Before you came to this website, what did you look at? that one. site ya know?#?#? 9) What are you wearing? black shirt. black pamnts black flip flops hairs down..... brugandy nail polish on my feets and uh thats good enuff 10) Did you dream last night? i uh.. dreamed about knifer. my dads friend... 11) When did you last laugh? bout 20 minutes ago my momwas cracking me up. 12) What is on the walls of the room you are in? pics. 13) Seen anything weird lately? a indian guy walking and then sitting walking then sitting im like whatt the fuck?!?!!??!1 14) Last movie you saw? biker boys.lol. ha! pshhhh 15) If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first? i would bail my man out. take his ass to rehab and detox his fucnky ass take him away... to a expensive island and buy that island. build houses for my moms and friends. and..... make hella babys.... cus now im able to afford em... and live happily ever after with him. 16) Tell me something about you that I don't know. i havent had sex in forever and its fucking killing me.... so now its like im charging a bill on all this pron from cable.lol. the end. yeah.little sexual. i know. 17) If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? people wouldnt be so fucking judgemental. and dawgs can be brought in storees and diff places cus i hate leaving dubb in the car :( 18) Do you like to dance? yes! 19) George Bush: ::whatever:: im just like.. bring in the new. 20) Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? kariiiiina or chloe. 21) [Same question for a boy] anthony alexanderrrrrr 22) Would you ever consider living abroad? i dont know what that means? --------------------------------------------- last cigarette:imma have one right now. last kiss: dub like.. uh 20 minutes ago. last good cry: 2 weeks. last library book checked out: hahaha they banned my ass from the libraray i dont know how to whisper. last movie seen:biker boys....... whut bout you?!?!?1 last book read: triliogy of amelia badelia hahahah kids book. i <3 it. last cuss word uttered: hell no. last beverage drank: dr pepper! last food consumed:#1 at mcdonals. last phone call: him. last tv show watched: king of queens last shoes worn:black flip flops. last cd played:on the lowd down last item bought: no skrill. last downloaded song:freont line. WHUTTT DO WE HAVE HUUUUUURRRRRRR. A NEW LINE REPPING THE BAYYYYY last annoyance: DUBB last disappointment: i dont know. my dad??! last soda drank: dr pepper last thing handwritten:doodling. and wiritng on a bill envelope. last word spoken:okay. last sleep: 1-10 last IM: him last weird encounter: that idian man. last ice cream eaten: ?!?!?1 i dont eat ice cream. last amused: the chillliiii last time wanting to die: literally?? last time in love: when i saw his face. last time hugged:last nite last time scolded:benny last lipstick used: lipgloss. no color added to my lips too fake. last shirt worn: 3/4 sleeve black one. last time dancing: yesturday in the living room. last poster looked at: the carnival pic. last show attended: .. too long to member last webpage visited: livejournal.com I was doing these things: 1 MINUTE AGO:this quiz 1 HOUR AGO: gas station 1 DAY AGO: sleeping 1 WEEK AGO: thinking if i shoud go see keith. 1 YEAR AGO: off the hook on crystal meth. prolly smoking a bowl or puddle.... sucking that glass dick. ya know. current clothes: -stop it,. read above current mood: uhm im aight. i could be better current music: no current taste: big mac. ewl nasty now. current hair: down straight... current annoyance: stoppppppppp current smell:him. current thing I should be doing: resting helping cleaning up. current desktop picture: its a snowy hill thing ugkly. its my moms coomputer im here not at my house.klol. i have good fella on mines.lol current refreshment: no current worry: calinga or quentin 1. What do you most like about your body? that.............uhm well nothing i hate my body. 2. And least? everything. name it. i agree wirh it. you can be right on this one.lol. 3. How many fillings do you have? to many :x ahhhhh 4. Do you think you're good looking? i can be. aight. 5. Do other people tell you that you're good looking? yes but they liiiiie.

hmmm

2004-04-05T09:09:05Z

eye_love_itt ^^^^ and whattt?!?!?!?! holy shit i know how to make cuts now!!!!!! fuck i have too much damn time on my hands. that and that damn hour back... errr

<3 my mommy is sick<3

2004-04-05T07:33:24Z

my mom goes to the doc tomorrow at 2:00 im nervous and scared to find out its something hgella serious. i dunno ::shrugs:: we will have to see... anyways good night people. another night blown. nothing to do. bleh. whatever.
gone.
ps.
i hate my dad.who calls him self a father he aint shit. he is nothing. he is worthless to me. if my mom is seriously sick.. im going to freak out. and prolly go the fuck off on him.

_^_^_^__^_^MY WRAP._^_^_^_^_^_^_^_^
please god..... i know i dont have enough faith sometimes and i know i dont really deserve shit cus im always fucking up and always getting into troiuble and shit even when i know its wrong i choose to do so anyways... but please please PLEASE dont fucking let anything be wrong with my mom... see shes been having these minor attacks.. anxiety?? minor heartattacks...???? i dont know... she hasnt been to the doc in a really long time.... maybe 10 years but her attack the other day was enuff to freak her out to go to the doctore. those 15 dseconds she couldnt move or breathe freaked her out.... my brother and i can not live and go on and live a stable under contnrol life without her. see shes the only one.... who has been there... shes our mom. we need her. alive and healthy. so please lord. please... if you exist.... please if theres any realness at all to the hype please... let my mother be aight... shes needed.<3 oh yeah... and my dad hasnt been to jail in about three years pleaseeeeee let him catch a case so my mom could have a easy life for about 8 monthes. see she uses the time hes away as a breather from all the bullshit... that makes her sick. and stressed. so please let him catch a case. please?!?! but please lord dont let him be in the same POD as keith please. cus i will be so embarassed my father.... is in there with my boyfriend.... but understand this. i rather have him in jail and be embarassed then him running with all the heroin addicts at the corner store that cop dope on bikes... that are labeled low life junkies. keep him safe... but keeop him away. oh yeah... thanks lord. for stirring my bros in the right directions they are turning out to be good kids. inlike me :) smile.
anyways. thanks for listening to my prayer... now go away. thank so much.

heres some pics. of my mommy and me. and some of my bros and i. my home life.<3 i love it.

keith<3 i love u

2004-04-04T23:45:40Z

oh yeah and the other sya i got this in the mail<33 from my baby. im offically jail bound now.lol. shiiiit. i dont know. people i chill with know exxactley wheren i got it.lol they like oh whose in jail. oOo KEITH SENT IT TO YOU. so i hate wearing it cus it causes attentionnand it goesright on my wrist ya know. its like LOOOK JAIL JAIL JAIL. i dont know, i loved it tho. red and black cus he knows them are my favorites. kinda cool. those of you who arent familiar with jail stuff?!?!?! the yarn is made from colored tube socks.. ya know the long socks and they have the red or yellow whatever color ring round em. yeah those. made from socks. so technically i am wearing a sock.lol. man.

ttyl. people.
gone.